It has been about 23 years since I responded to the call to start preaching in the subways and it has been a sanctifying and challenging time filled with blessings.  As I am going through many changes in my personal and ministry life, once again, I need to spend time in prayerful discernment, as I desire to be in God’s will and not my own or anyone else’s.

I do want to give more time to this ministry, as well as my family and other ministry work, and yet I struggle with the need to earn a living vs. receive support while preaching the gospel, in order to responsibly care for the family I have been blessed with. And yet I hear the witness of friends in Pakistan and Kenya who have devoted themselves fully to the ministry while relying upon the grace of God to provide.  These men of faith humble me and I consider Jesus’s words about not being able to serve both God and money.  Yet I must discern to what I am called to do by the Lord precisely.  To do more is pride, but to do less is rebellion, and raising support has never been something I have seriously attempted or am comfortable with.

Spiritually, and on earth, our time is always short, and the recent conflicts between Hamas and Israel, added to the 3 years of Covid pandemic, and threats of World War III starting, have raised much discussion in Christian circles about the imminent return of the Lord. Coupling this with the Lord instructing me to preach specifically to his people, the Jews, over the last 2 years, adds to my speculations as to what is happening in the earth and the Kingdom, as whether or not I have been freed up to spend more time evangelizing.

I need the prayers of many, as I do not want to miss God nor be unfaithful in any area of my life’s responsibilities. Of course, I have choices I can make, but what seems reasonable to man is not necessarily the mind of God. and Jesus’ challenging words to follow Him always linger and call out to me.

As far as blogging here, I do hope to do more and give updates, as I have neglected this because of other work, and the uncomfortability I have with seemingly promoting myself. which perhaps I need to get over and reconsider as bearing witness and being transparent for others interested in this ministry.

Please pray and thank you.

Stephen